31 January 2012

after.


I got home from work and decided to run the curling iron through my hair again.
I re-applied my makeup.
Adam and I sat together and said a prayer of thanks.  
We asked for strength, peace, and for His will to be done in this situation.
We arrived 15 minutes early to our meeting. 
Adam wanted to wait in the car but I couldn't wait another second.
We went inside, and were asked to wait in a small room until our social worker came and got us.
5 minutes later, in walked our social worker.
I was super nervous and Adam was my rock.
The nerves were like "first date" nerves.  
The, "I hope she likes me" nerves 
and the "I want everything to go perfect" nerves.
Our social worker informed us the "E" was upstairs, and very nervous.
So nervous that she felt like she was going to throw up.
Me too!
That made me feel a little better.
We walked upstairs to our meeting room and my heart was beating out of my chest.
The second I saw her, my body was filled with peace :)
We smiled, we hugged, we admitted our nerves and it began.
The birth mother is lovely.
She's an artist.
She likes Sherlock Holmes
She reads the baby Tennyson and Byron.
She's so sweet and soft spoken and we absolutely loved her.
We talked about music, faith, books, pets, everything.
Our birth mother was an adoptee as well so she knows exactly what a gift adoption is.
We talked about her delivery plans and where we would fit into to all of that. 
We talked about how "open" this adoption will be.
After she left, our social worker informed us that "E" loved us so much and is very content knowing that we will be extremely loving parents for her baby; our baby.
After a few questions and answers with the social worker, she explained that the next time we would here from her would be when "E" delivers.
At that point, it hit me, this is FOR REAL.  
I hadn't been sure before if we were the only family that "E" was considering or if she was meeting with other families as well.

No, we are the only ones.
The chosen ones.
The blessed ones.

Meeting "E" was a very special gift, one that I will treasure forever.
I am excited that I may be able to tell our baby that she "has her mother's eyes." 
I am excited to share with her that I met her birth mother and that she loved her so very much.  I can't wait to share with her how smart, and lovely, and courageous, and loving her birth mother is.  
"E" is the women who will give us our heart's desire.

"E" is scheduled to be induced on the 29th of February, if she doesn't have the baby before that.
She is already dilated though and can literally go into labor any day.
It's happening :)

In the back of my mind, I know that things aren't done until they are done and that there is still a potential for things to go wrong.  Right now though, I am only allowing myself to focus on the positive and the excitement of the moment!!
God is good.

xo
janel

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49 comments:

  1. OHHH MY GOODNESS!!!!! That is sooo awesome! I just screamed and told my parents that you guys are getting a baby (they were like - who?!??). Im soooo happy for you guys I could cry!

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  2. Oh that's so exciting! It's great the meeting went so well. Congrats :)

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  3. it's simply wonderful, all of it! :)

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  4. This is such great news! I am so excited for you guys.

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  5. That is just fabulous. That story made me feel all fuzzy inside. I'm single, in grad school, and nowhere near ready for mommy-dom, but I can only imagine how excited you must be. Many, many blessings to you guys, "E", and the baby! I'm praying for you all <3

    Erin

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  6. I am so very very happy for the both of you! I cannot wait for the moment you hold Your baby!!! Many prayers being said for you everyday!

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  7. Such great news! I was hoping everything would work out for you all! It's great to know she picked you all and you all alone. What a blessing! Also, congrats on the news of a nephew, what a joyous week for you all!

    <3 kayla

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  8. Such great news! I was hoping everything would work out for you all! It's great to know she picked you all and you all alone. What a blessing! Also, congrats on the news of a nephew, what a joyous week for you all!

    <3 kayla

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  9. I am sending lots of love and prayers your way... I had tears of happiness while I read this! Your dreams are coming true.

    XOXO's!

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  10. I am very glad your meeting went so well. I just started reading your blog & I feel myself getting all emotionally invested in each post (lol). I said a prayer for your both today & I hope God continues to bless you & your husband as you venture into parenthood. Congrats again!
    -Caleisha @ golden-24.blogspot.com

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  11. Yeah!! I am so happy for you that it went so well.

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  12. Oh Janel. This warms my heart so much.
    I can see you with a baby. This will happen.
    xxx

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  13. so happy to read this news Janel, you and Adam will be awesome parents, your baby is a luck baby and her birthmother knows that. I am so happy with you, thank you so much for sharing your journey!

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  14. So happy for you both that it went well. Reading your blog has been (is) really insightful and inspiring.x

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  15. What a wonderful news ... I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you three

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  16. This post made me feel so happy for you! and so overwhelmed with love I almost started crying in the office.. not cool. I'm keeping my fingers and everything else crossed for you :) xx

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  17. so exciting! i hope that everything continues to go great. "E" sounds like an amazing woman, and I'm glad you guys seemed to be perfect for each other.

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  18. I got goosebumps reading this post! I'm so excited for you guys:)

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  19. OMG!! I am all kinds of happy for you two!! I saw "After" in my feed and literally gasped outload because I couldn't wait to read what happened!! This is so wonderful!

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  20. Congratulations!! That is so exciting! Such great news!

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  21. I am *so* happy for you! :D

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  22. Congratulations!! How wonderful is this universe we live... giving its blessings in just the perfect timing, whether we know it or not ;-)

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  23. SO EXCITING!!!! Last night in our class we had a birth mom come and speak. She was exactly what I imagined your birth mom to look like. Awesomely wonderful news. I hope there aren't any hiccups after the birth. I can't wait to hear more!

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  24. I totally teared up when I read this! I'm so happy for you!

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  25. I was waiting on pins and needles for the "after meeting" call from you and Adam. I am jumping out of my skin EXCITED for you both. You will be amazing wonderful, over the moon parents. We can't wait to meet Baby A!!!! ~Gigi

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  26. Continuing to pray for God's protection over you and E and the baby. Yay for peace! Yay for God!

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  27. i recently found your blog and i'm in love. i hope and will pray for the best and your (godwilling) growing family.

    love from west texas, ashley

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  28. Ah! Excitinggggg. Can't wait to see pictures of your little bundle!

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  29. Ahh! I totally cried reading this. God is great.

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  30. This is so amazing!!! So happy for you guys!!! I hope everything goes well and that baby comes faaast!!!

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  31. oh dear, this post has me in tears. i'm just so beyond happy for you two...i feel like i've been through it with you since i've been reading your blog since you started this whole process. it's been a long time coming and i couldn't be happier for you two...

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  32. Seriously crying during my 5th hour reading this. I cannot wait!!

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  33. God Bless you both! That is so exciting and I am thrilled for you. I teared up at my desk reading this.

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  34. Congratulations! I've been following your story for a long while. So happy and excited for you.

    xo

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  35. Oh my goodness - praise the Lord! This gave me all kind of smiles and happiness when I read it last night. SO EXCITED FOR Y'ALL! Praying continues...

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  36. so very very happy for you!

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  37. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I found your blog by accident and I can't get myself to stop reading! I'm so happy that the Lord has blessed you with all of these wonderful gifts lately! This is a very exciting time for you guys and I'm glad you are sharing it with all of us. Thanks for sharing! Enjoy the month!

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  38. I am so happy and excited for you guys. This is amazing and I will be sending so much positive love your way. <3

    -Sara-

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  39. I'm wishing you guys all the very, very best. Though I'm a relatively new reader it's been great reading these posts and your excitement at the dream of meeting your baby. You make us feel like we're going through this process with you. Which means that once your baby is finally home in your arms, we'll all get to be there with you as well.
    Sarah
    http://comingunstitched.blogspot.com

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  40. I couldn't read this fast enough! I am overjoyed for you! :)

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  41. Seriously all tears here. I have been following your blog for over a year now. I started because I loved the craftiness, and then I kept coming back because of the personal story being told. I don't know you and I don't even live near you, and yet I am so friggin' happy for you. Congratulations.

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  42. Totally crying right now...!
    Congrats Janel, such happy & wonderful news :)

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  43. What amazing news!!! Lots of prayers for your new little family!!

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  44. Hi Janel - I started your Journaling for A Cause class (via Etsy) - and had to stop, but just yesterday tried to begin again (so exciting that the "cause" just happens to be coming right around the corner!), unfortunately I didn't realize there was a deadline on the link. Can you please send me a new invite? Thank you!

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  45. Janel, I am thinking about you a ton and hoping for an amazing outcome! I can't wait to meet your little one (here on your blog, of course), and will continue to send positive vibes your way. :D

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  46. So so happy for your little family <3

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  47. I'm not going to lie, this post just about brought me to tears. I'm very excited for your growing family. The part where you talked about being able to tell you daughter that "she has her mothers eyes" really pulled on my heart strings. You see, I was adopted, I often wonder if I have my mothers eyes, nose, voice. When I look at my girls now I can see my mother-in-law in them but I wonder if they got any of my biological mother in them. Thank you so much for writing about your experience. It really got me thinking.

    Best wishes to you guys!!! XOXO kat

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  48. So beautiful and exciting! I'm so happy for you. :)

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  49. So exciting! I am so happy for you. I just found your blog and reading this, without reading too much farther back, I can tell how wonderful of a mother you will be. Adoption is such a beautiful gift.

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